I am One

I am one

I wish to remain one

I despise the crowds that suffocate

I despise the egos that tower over me

I despise the helpers who try to reach me

I am unreachable

I wish to remain one

I cower in darkness

I avoid the light

I hide from the onlookers 

I run from the watchers who create a mania in my brain

I am strangled by eyes wrapping their stares around me

I wish to be invisible

I wish to remain one

I am cold

I shiver

I have no means to survive this winter

I seek the warmth of the light

I need the warmth of arms around me

I am loveless

I wish to have one

I am lost

I have no direction

I grope in the darkness that envelops me

I am jealous of the light I cannot reach

I am trapped in the wrong place

I wish to belong

I wish to be someone

I am broken

I am helpless

I yearn for the end to come

I am desperate for helpers to reach me

I must step into the light and expose my secret

I cannot be one

God save me from being alone